Complicated Emotions

Sometimes I can't say what my emotions are, because I don't know the names by which they are called. On a superficial level they can be: anger, resentment, guilt, remorse, misery, sadness... But they are more than that. And when you mix them all together... I really don't know what you call it. I think of those toys we got as kids. Usually animals that stood on a small round platform. You could hold it in your hand and when you pushed the indent under the platform, the little animal would collapse. That's how I feel a lot of the time. Straight and tall one minute and crumpled the next.